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43、丁香

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　　Meng Yi\'s high school deskmate is a strange girl. She was slender and thin, with dark skin, slightly thick lips, a dilapidated nose and an air of intolerance. Even with the most diverse aesthetic, it\'s hard to conjure up any word of beauty.
　　Under the \"double reduction policy,\" music, physical education, art and other courses are no longer occupied by other teachers. At the beginning of the school year, the seniors will promote their clubs to the freshmen. Dance clubs, music clubs, basketball clubs, skateboard clubs and so on are very diverse. Meng Yi\'s deskmate, Wu Kun, joined the literary community.
　　MengYi feel WuKun this person is very strange. Teacher let MengYi took the book to sit inside WuKun. She walked over and the teacher was still dividing the seats. WuKun see MengYi, quickly stood up to let her in. She took the books in the hands of Meng Yi and put them on her desk, and took the heavy bag for Meng.
　　The teacher reiterated in front of the school rules and regulations: girls are not allowed to stay bangs, no make-up, no nail dye, no perm; Boys are not allowed to keep long hair, school uniforms to wear, allowed to change the style of school uniforms without permission, to spread tablecloths on the table.
　　WuKun intimate took MengYi tablecloth, help her shop. Meng Yi thanks her. She lovingly took Meng Yi\'s hand and asked her what she needed, and whether there was any place that was not suitable. As if Meng Yi is not string seats, but moved home, she is the master. Meng Yi did not feel at home. She always felt that Wu Kun\'s smile did not reach the fundus, if you do not like yourself, at a respectful distance is not the best choice, why to pretend enthusiasm? Meng Yi doesn\'t understand.
　　Meng Yi is not going to study science. Unlike other parents who require their children to study science, Mrs Meng agrees with her daughter\'s choice. She knows how hard it is for her daughter to learn science.
　　The teacher assigned groups according to their seats. There were eight groups, each with six people in a group. Each string of seats to the group as a unit, as for the group before and after the seat, by the team leader coordination decision. MengYi and WuKun and their classmates before and after for a group, Wu-Kun volunteer when the group leader.
　　Meng Yi\'s group is three men and three women, a boy called Li Zhong sitting in front of her, MengYi think he is familiar. She was the last person in the group to pass, and as she walked to her seat, she felt eyes locked on her. She turned her head and inadvertently met his eyes, and he smiled at Meng Yi. He was not malicious, Meng Yi judged.
　　When assigned seats in the group, Meng Yi sat in the front or last row, Li Zhong always sat before and after her. She didn\'t hate the boy, she could feel his kindness to her. Li Zhong never told her some metaphor, metaphor words, this age of boys, always gathered together to discuss some topics of interest to them. Can he respect MengYi very much, he once asked Meng-Yi, girls like what gift, he wants to give his crush girl. He was safe, and Meng Yi let go of the restless heart that he occasionally cast on his own too hot gaze.
　　Meng Huan did not share a class with his sister, he was worried, he never separated from his sister. Every day at the end of the first class, he walked from the first floor to the sixth floor to call his sister out. On the porch windowsill, he peeled the eggs and handed them to his sister. Put the straw in the milk and feed it to your sister before she frowns. Meng Yi doesn\'t like to eat boiled eggs. She thinks the yolk is very dry. In the third quarter, when class was over, he would go upstairs and bring a fruit to his sister. The Chinese imagination is at its peak in the relationship between men and women. A man and a woman walking side by side is a special relationship. And brother care about sister, as it should be.
　　Meng Yi will go downstairs during the second period of class. MengHuan looked at the door of the classroom, there are pushing and shoving boys, there is a whisper of female students, but not sister figure. He looked at the clock above the blackboard. With three minutes to go, he got up and walked out.
　　Meng Yi sat in the second row on the side of the window.Do not need to search hard, Meng Huan one eye then saw the younger sister. He looked at his sister, who was laughing and talking with the boy in front of him, and turned away.
　　Meng Yi lay on the bed, tossing and turning, the room was quiet, she was waiting for the slight sound of the balcony.
　　Looking at the fluorescent pointer in the dark pointing straight up, she knew it was twelve. She got out of bed and went to the balcony.
　　Meng Huan did not sleep, sleep shuang about tonight, did not come. There was a rustling in his ears, and then he felt the covers lifted from the soles of his feet and someone coming in.
　　“Monkey business! It is so dark, also from the balcony over, what if fell? ”MengHuan lightly rebuke sister, but the tone is filled with slowly worry.
　　“The person who pretends to sleep cannot wake up, my brother does not go to my room, how dare I dare to ask my brother to open the door for me.” Meng Yi Jiao Chen way.
　　Meng Huan looked at such a sister, happy and sad. My sister has not been so lively for a long time, but who let my sister from a pool of stagnant water into a beating spring?
　　\"Brother, why are you unhappy?\"
　　\'I\'m not upset.
　　Meng Yi pursed her lips, \"brother, do you regret it?\" \"No.\" \"Brother, do you love me?\" Meng Yi asked softly. \"Love.\" Meng Huan can never refuse such a sister, he in her smooth forehead, stamped a kiss. “But why does my brother always push me away? Brother, brother, I know, we are brothers and sisters, but not close brother and sister, therefore, the mother\'s nurturing grace is particularly heavy. So, you dare not love me. It doesn\'t matter, I can spea□□t. I could walk to you. I would take your hand first. But, brother, I\'m afraid too. Afraid you just pity me, afraid you fall in love with other girls, like you have so many people. Brother, I ask you again, do you want to be with me, if you do not want, we will only be brother and sister. Don\'t push me away again if you will. Brother, do you want me or not? ”
　　MengYi fixed looked at MengHuan eyes. Look at a face firmly sister, sighed, gently kiss sister again, but, this time, he kissed the sister that soft lips.
　　Meng Yi opens big eyes, the breath is full of juvenile taste. It was the first time they had ever kissed, a lover\'s kiss. She raised her arm slowly and put it around her brother\'s waist. Young waist is very lean, but not weak, like the accumulation of strength.
　　He knew that the person in his arms, the person he was kissing, was his sister, and they had the same blood, and he shouldn\'t be like this. But when I remembered the time I tried to stay away from my sister, she almost died. A sudden thought came into his mind that he would always hold his sister in his arms and never hand her over to anyone. What did they do wrong, they did not steal or rob, no harm, they just fell in love with a person, but two lonely souls after several struggles can not help but close to it.
　　He pressed close to his sister\'s lips, grinding slowly, no further. His skin is greasy, with a girl\'s body fragrance. Smooth legs as if from, like fish kiss the water, a ripple. Slightly raised bud tightly stuck to his chest, across the silky silk fabric, vaguely can feel the slowly blooming bud.
　　Meng huan slightly left his sister\'s lips, watching her sister\'s glittering eyes, there, reflecting his eyebrows, filled with all the joy of the girl.
　　\"Why wear so little?\" Meng Huan frowned and looked at his sister\'s thin white nightdress.
　　\"It\'s so hot in the room that I have to tuck in.\" MengYi du mouth said.
　　“already the Beginning of Autumn The temperature difference in the morning and evening, easy to catch cold. ”
　　\"Brother never heard of autumn tiger, hot sweat and then blow, it is easy to catch cold.\"
　　\"Are you comfortable in class?\"
　　\"It\'s okay.\"
　　“How are you getting along with your classmates? Did anyone bully you? ”
　　“Brother, who will bully me. I don\'t even know the class yet. ” Meng Yi very undignified rolled a white eye. Looking at a long time never seen sister face lively expression, Meng Huan heart sour and pan up.
　　\"Are you happy?\"
　　\"Of course.\"
　　\"Is it the boy sitting in front of you?\"
　　\"Who?\" Meng Yi looked at her brother incredibly.
　　\"I saw you laughing so hard with him today.\"
　　“You mean Lee Chung? Are you in class? Why didn\'t you come to me? ” Facing his sister\'s question, Meng Huan slightly turned his head.
　　\"Brother, are you jealous?\" MengYi eyes full of narrow.
　　\"No.\" Meng Huan stiff said.
　　“Jealous is jealous, you don\'t admit it. You, return, not, accept, admit. ”
　　MengYi with if cut onion root finger gently point elder brother\'s shoulder, word a meal said. Meng Huan\'s heart was ashamed and angry, holding his sister\'s slender fingers in one hand, and kneading her sister\'s smooth face, slightly forced.
　　\"Well, just tell you.\" Meng Yi rubs his cheek and frowns. \"He and I are ordinary classmates, people have like girls.\"
　　\"How do you know?\"
　　\"He said ah, he asked me before, what girls like, he wants to give his favorite girl.\"
　　\"Is that so?\" MengHuan did not put down his heart, he had seen the boy look at his sister, which is full of desire for his sister. Meng Yi bored of playing with his brother\'s hand, stretched out his fingers intertwined. \"You and mother exactly alike, afraid I fall in love.\" Thinking of Mrs. Meng, Meng Yi gave a sneer. “As soon as my mother saw me, she asked me in the dark if I was in love. She seems an open parent, but in fact, she is nervous. Before, I walked with her on the road, met classmates. They said hello to me and to her. She was smiling, the results, just turned around, asked me who is that person? Which class? How did you meet? Later, the next time they saw me, they did not dare to greet me, only secretly beckoned to me. ”
　　\"Auntie always does.\" Meng Huan tone euphemism.
　　\"You don\'t have to worry about me.\" MengYi disdain to.“When I was a child, I didn\'t see Meng Hong all the year round. My mother left home when she was young, and my grandparents\' emotional identification with her was always better than two aunts, as for the old lady and the lady, not to mention.I grew up in kindergarten, but the children there collective isolation me. At that time, I only had my mother. So, no matter what is said or done, I think it\'s love for me. But brother, I love the good pain. I sat there, practicing boring calligraphy, hand grinding out blood bubbles, grinding out a cocoon, but my mother is still not satisfied. She said that as long as I grow up safely, but she still gave me a mountain of homework.I got 60, she wanted me to get 70, I get 90, she wants to get 100. I remember, as a kid, I wanted a fish tank. Meng Hong said, I test 100 points will give me buy, then I tested 100 percent back, full of joy that he will lead me to select the fish tank. But he told me that he was talking about counting and writing two hundred points. I feel wrong, but I do not know what is wrong. When I got two hundredths, he added, \"This agreement has long been out of number.\" There\'s only one chance. If I don\'t take it, it\'s gone. Mom always said to me, finish my homework can go out to play. Can wait until I finished, she asked me, tomorrow\'s written not to write, finished tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow. Until one day, I could not help but ask my mother, to write when, my mother suddenly tore up all my homework, hysterical roar at me, since I do not want to write, do not write. She said that she was for my good, but I was so Nianhuizhao, aggressive. I was so frightened that I confessed. I cried for a long time, kneeling for a while, mother finally forgive me. Then, she took my hand and bought a new exercise book, including before I finished her torn. Brother, I love my mother, so, she wants I have to do. My mother loves me, but I want to eat apples, but she uses all her money to buy me bananas, because she thinks bananas are healthy. At first, I was grateful to her, but I couldn\'t cheer for her. Gradually I lost my gratitude. Later, I understand that my mother loves her daughter in her mind: obedient, well-behaved, filial piety, sensible, obedient to her. I am not such a daughter, but her daughter, she can not help but love me, only to transform me into her ideal appearance. When I was sick, my mother took care of me. Everyone was several years old. They said I had a good mother.But brother, some good, let you die, also live well; Some people, let you love, also can\'t hate the peace of mind. ” Meng Huan distressed sister, did not speak. \"Actually, the crystalline salt branches of Salzburg are just branches if they are put in water.\"
　　\"Yi, I will not let you alone.\"
　　\"Brother don\'t push me away?\"
　　\"No more.\" Meng Huan said firmly.
　　\"Brother, let\'s leave here.\"
　　\"Leave?\"
　　“Mom wants me to go to Middlebury University, but I want Huaqing University. It is far away from Suzhou Mountain. At that time, we will rent a house there. Over the years, I have saved some money for our college expenses for four years. Wait until the holidays, we can work there part-time, do not have to come back. Wait until graduation, we will work there, buy a small house, just the two of us live, okay? ” Meng Huan didn\'t think that his sister had planned the future so far, and his heart was tiny.
　　\"Yes, but I\'ll pay the rent and keep you.\"
　　“Where does brother have money? Mom usually give me and your pocket money where can be the same? ” Meng Huan got up and brought a passbook. Looking at the figures above, Meng Yi could not help but gasp. \"Where did you get so much money?\" “Aunt to pocket money although not much, but every year we are the same, and my father often give me pocket money in private. In primary school, they asked me to borrow my homework. After junior high school, I will go out to do tutor. ” \"Unexpectedly, Meng Hong also has a deep love of the time.\" Meng Yi said sarcastically.
　　Look at the amount of passbook, MengYi determined to open source and save money. Meng Huan listened to, to my sister at ease to learn, whether as a brother or as a lover, he has the obligation to take care of her.
　　Curled up in her brother\'s arms, Meng Yi felt unprecedented ease. In her dream, she and her brother walked hand in hand in the sun, hugging and kissing. Sister Jiwen smiled and wished them happiness.